Saturday, August 3, 2019

Buat Aku Tersenyum

Huh, would you (and by you, I mean basically nobody because no one I know blogs anymore) look at that. My old blog still exists.

Hello there, old friend. I didn't think I missed you but I think I do.

It's been 10 years since my first post on this blog. That's wild.

Going through my old posts made me feel really grateful to have had such genuinely good & reliable people in my life growing up. I have so many positive memories from my past (excluding college memories in upstate NY though because I had a rough time there haaaaahahaha*cries inside*). Other than some petty shit, my posts were those of a happy and fulfilled teen :)

I believe I have grown/changed a lot in the past 10 years. But on some levels, I also feel like I'm pretty much the same. 

I'm currently at the stage where I'm trying to figure out where next to steer the ship of my life, so I've been doing a lot of thinking. A lot of feeling too, I guess. I'm a little exhausted, honestly, because I've been doing all this thinking/feeling for 2 years now and I haven't quite settled on anything. Good news is, I've FINALLY figured out a new career path for myself (bye Neuro, I won't really miss you but let's keep in touch). One that I'm actually thoroughly excited about, and I'm proud of myself because I put in so much work to get here. But everything else seems to be up in the air.

Spending 2 and a half months in Malaysia has also got me seeing several things in a new/different light, and got me rethinking.

Things that I was sure about, I'm not so sure anymore. And vice versa.

Classic quarter-life crisis? Perhaps.

These next few years should be interesting.

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This was actually kinda nice. Maybe I should start blogging again. lmao we'll (by we, I mean just me) see.

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