World Spins Madly On

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Lotsa love to you babies. Unless you're gonna grow up to be one of those annoying pampered ones who cry everytime they don't get something. If you are, I hope you get sent to the army at age 3.

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So I was clearing my room and I tumbled onto alot of things that reminded me of us and how we used to be.
Then again, so many other things have been reminding me of us.
and I miss that. Us.
But the thing is, I retrace my steps and I don't know what would I have done differently.

Miss the feeling of comfort every time I spoke to you.
and all the crap you gave me when you made fun of me (:
Really wish it was possible for us to be friends now.
But I know I can't always have it my way. I can't break us up and ask to be friends. That's pretty damn unfair and alot to ask for.

The corniness of the following sentences is gonna be overwhelming.
I guess what I fear the most now is that you've lost hope in love.
That's gonna make me feel ultimately crappy cause love was what you made me believe in in the first place.

I don't regret anything we've done and I still believe that I meant everything I've said throughout the 4 years we were together.
I don't know what goes through your mind when you look back at us.
Some part of me thinks it's along the lines of GAHH and anger and hurt.
But I really hope it's anything but regret.

Maybe our paths will cross again, maybe not.
But when I look back at all the times we had, I'll definitely smile.
Cause I think we had a really good run and I'm so glad to have had you for 4 very important years of my life.
(:

I know you don't read my blog but it somehow gives me some sort of comfort writing out like this.
Well.
Take care of yourself & I really hope you find happiness, Adrian Tan.